OnLy GoD KnoWs WhY..!!!

I’ve been sittin’ here

Tryin’ to find myself

I get behind myself

I need to rewind myself

Lookin’ for the payback

Listen for the playback

They say that every man bleeds just like me

And now I feel like number one

Yet I’m last in life

I watch my younger son

And it helps to pass the time

I take too many pills to help to ease the pain

I made a couple of dollar bills still I feel the same

Everybody knows my name

They say it way out loud

A lot of folks fuck me

It’s hard to hang out in crowds

I guess that’s the price you pay

To be some big shot like I am

Out strecthed hands and one night stands

Still I can’t find love

And when your walls come tumbling down

I will always be around

And when your walls come tumbling down

I will always be around

People don’t know about the things I say and do

They don’t understand about the shit that I’ve been through

It’s been so long since I’ve been home

I’ve been gone, I’ve been gone for way too long

Maybe I forgot all things I miss

Oh somehow I know there’s more to life than this

I said it too many times

And I still stand firm

You get what you put in

And people get what they deserve

Still I ain’t seen mine

No I ain’t seen mine

I’ve been giving just ain’t been gettin’

I’ve been walking down that there line

So I think I’ll keep on walking

With my head held high

I’ll keep moving on and only God knows why

Only God… Only God

Only God knows why

Only God… knows… why, why, why only God knows why

Take me to the river’s edge

Take me to the river, hey hey hey

epi bezday 2 muh beluved kazen,syahmi giant!haha..his mom,ciksu sruh me balek kaybee arinie..nak celebrate bezday syahmi kat mc d..huwaaa nak ikot!!!but me kena packing brg..uh!!

smlm plan nak tido awal..pastu si syuk plak call lpas die call maen sms plak..huhu!asyek duk bcakap psal bdak2 brusjamban..!wuhuu..berusjamban 4eva..muachxx!ngeh ngeh`..baru jew nak tido..i’shah plak call bgtau die balek diz friday..huwarghh!nampaknye x smpat la nak jumpe ngan die..arini cambiase la bgn lmbat..pastu kul 2.20pm me pegik amek adek me kat skewl..lalala~ beshnyeeee..jumpe ngan mmber2 me..epul,lyda,apeq,natie,yna..juz bebual bout 5min coz diowang ade class plak..huhu!n diowang bgtau me 2morrow diowang nak dtg umah me..yeah!cayunkk kowang!hekhek..

huh..totin br jew sms me..ckp die skrg kat jb till diz friday..huwaaa..die ckp tpakse cancel nak jumpe dis weekend..uh!pastu die ckp 3july die dah nak fly indon..huwaaaaa totin!!!jgn lew pegik lagik…..then die sms me balek ckp mayb diz friday die dtg kat kolej me..uh!arap2 jadik la..amin~

smlm me tido kul 3.35am..plan nak tido awal..pastu asyik duk maen sms ngan kerrie plak..smpai lupe nak tido awal..huhu!time nak tido tu abg jex call tanye bile nak cont study..n psan kat me sruh blaja rajin2 hehe..thanx abg jex!lalala~ 2day me bgn awal..kul 9lbih dah bgn..tu pon sbb janji ngan ninie nak kuar gi bli brg sket..pegik fotostat sijil2 la..pegik amek gmbar..pastu pegik mkn..uh!kenyang2..hehe

::2day:: uh..kul 8.45am lyda n apeq call..tanye me nak pegik bile..huhu~then lyda n apeq bgtau diowang dah nak brenti skewl..ngeh ngeh`..bior btol bdak ni..isk!kul 11lbih me bgn tido..lpas mandi2..me jage cc japs..pastu booking ticket airasia..kul 1pm me pegik bank BUMIPUTRA COMMERCE pegik bukak account..lame gilew..ampeh jew..pkeje bank tu plak byk soal..tanye psal x pnah nmpak me pon sblum ni..ampeh da..ade ke die tanye”ayah x bg kuar ke?”haha..ampeh x bg..me dah round srate tmpat..haha..bank jew me x pegik..ngeh ngeh`..pastu siap tau muh bro n muh sis study kat mane..mcm2..isk..pastu lpas kuar bank tu jumpe ngan muh ex bf,kerry lalala~ensem ek die skrg..akeke..so borak2 ngan die japs..pastu jumpe ngan achik..rupe2nye die dtg ngan kerry..diowang ajak me kuar b4 me pegik study..uh!pastu jumpe ngan sir wan ahmad firdaus..die tanye me cont study katne..n die ckp die 4julai masok UPSI amek master..huh!lpas tu me pegik kdai gmbar japs..pi cuci pic..balek trus jage cc..warghh buhsan..!seb baek lew kak aisyah,salleh,che nah n linda dtg..so leh la borak2 ngan diowang..warghh!buhsan buhsan buhsan!

::sunday,200604::7.15am me dah bgn..urghh ngantok gile seh..lpas antar iwan n kiki kat skewl..we[me,mom,adik,fariz n chox] balek kaybee..koz muh younger sis,adik ade appoiment surgery kat usm,kubang kerian..smpai kaybee owang laen p spital me duk umah jew..mlas le nak p spital..buhsan huhu~so duk umah tgk diari af ngan cikna..lalala~ kul 1.15pm me mandi2 n bsiap utk kuar ngan k.ilah..tman k.ilah pegik bumiputra commerce..pastu g amek ticket kat airport..pastu balek umah kjap..kul 5lbih kuar wif muh aunt,cikna n ciksu..wif muh kazen,ada..pegik fuji saloon..pastu pegik pesta thai!huhu..besh2..mcm2 me bli..pastu pegik pasaraya ekonomi..then pegik watson..uh!lpas maghrib..kiteowang dinner..lpas dinner pegik kdai LORDOK TELECOMUNICATION..lpas amek tepon..pegik PUSTAKA JOHAN..pegik bli alat2 tulis..pastu x tau nak g mane..so pegik PESTA THAI again!haha..sbb arini ari last..so bli mcm2..me bwa 150..smue abes..gile seh..ntah ape2 ntah yg me bli..uh! kul 12am baru lew me balek setiu..uh!kul 1.15am smpai..mandi,then 3.15am tidoo!

::saturday,190604::kul 5.45pm ninie dtg umah me..then kiteowang kuar mkn..time kiteowang tgh mkn tu..zerin smpai..so bebual2 ngan die japs..pastu kbetulan smpai sowang pompuan n laki..so zerin bgtau la kat me n ninie..yg bdak tu sbaye kiteowang jew but dah kawen la..tup tup..die dtg duk sbelah meja kiteowang..pastu laki die tu asyek tgk2 kat me jew..yg bini die plak nak marah2 laki die coz laki die tgk2 me plak..siot seh..ape die ingat me nak sgt kat laki die tu..perghh!me pon x nak lew..bitch!!!lenkali pndai2 lew jage laki..nak kawen sgt..haha!kul 7 kiteowang smpai umah n ninie lepak2 umah me japs..lpas maghrib me ikot ninie balek umah die..8.30pm iwan dtg amek..balek umah tgk akademi fantasia concert..kbetulan mase me smpai tu..muh mom,bro,sis n naziman br smpai dr kuantan..huhu!lpas tgk af concert..bebual2 wif muh mom..kul 4.30am baru tido..uh!

ngeh ngeh`..pic emmy yg die swuh me scan td..lalala~muachxx..!
publishby L|NdSaY a.k.a NiEjA

uh dah kul 3.41pm..pnatnye!kul 9am cambiase syafa call me..kjutkan me coz 2day me kena jage cc dr pagi..dah xde owang laen nak jage..muh mom kat kuantan lagiks..lpas syafa call me trus bgn..pegik jemur kain..haha sib baek lew me dah basuh baju tu smlm..so juz jemurkan jew la..9.45am time me duk mandi apeq smpai..pastu trus bukak cc..n lepak2 wif apeq n her kazen,iffah..kul 10.30am shahir n apiz tebu smpai..diowang dtg nak ajak apeq p class..apeq x nak..haha!lpas apiz n shahir balek..emmiey plak dtg cc..swuh me scan pic die plak..huhu!time me nak lunch sowang pakcik tu dtg sruh me taipkan minit mesyuarat agong pas..urkk…!mmg memule tu me x nak taip..pastu die swuh jgak..mrayu2 la..isk ampeh jew..ingatkan sket..perghh!ade la dlm 10helai..pastu sruh scan pic dlm 40keping..pastu bg me mase 1jam swuh siapkan..warghh!ape kejadah pakcik nie..ingat me ni robot ke ape..sesuke die jew..uh!pnatnye..dah lew x ckup tido..lapor2..

uh..asrul sms me.. “dear GOD,pls make sure all those people who dont care 2 call or sms me.2 lose their enpon..” shit!kejamnye die..pastu kbetulan owang kdai tepon tu bru sms me antar no recharge haha..so trus me rep sms si asrul..warghh!ntah psal tetibe x leh send msg palk..siot jew..me try call aaiaa..die x angkat phone..waaaaa die marah me kew ek..?isk..me call pon juz nak say sowie kat die..isk dah la nak sms pon x leh..huwaaaaa..!aaiaa..im so sowie..!!!!

uh..kul 6.45am me tido..kul 8am pinky kejutkan..die dah nak pi class..lpas die pegik me trus sambung tido haha..kul 8.55am apeq sms me bgtau die x konpem lg nak truskan pom6 or not..uh!pastu aaiaa sms me..huwaaa..me nak reply but credit xde..017 pon credit dh abes..siot jew..me nak sms aaiaa bgtau yg me x ikot muh mom pegik antar muh sis sbb diowang pegik mlake dlu..but crdit xde..geram btol kdai tepon tu pon satu..owang sruh antar no recharge x antor2..ampeh je!kcian si aaiaa..kul 9.28am syafa call me..kjutkan me bgn tido..thanx syafa!hehe..die still ingat tugas die kjutkan me pagi2..ahax!but me ngantok sgt2..so me smbung tido jew..kul 11lbih faris kjutkan me..nangis2 duk pngil my mom..uh!me wat dunno jew..tido2 kul 3.05pm baru bgn..urghh!pastu basuh baju..cuci pinggan mangkuk..vacum carpet la..jemur kain la..kemas umah la..uh mcm2..so tired!lpas siap kemas2 umah me jage cc lak..bdak2 maen game plak rmai arini..uh!nak tgk citer pilipina pon x smpat..after dinner sal college call..tanye bile nak p dftar..after isya’ me buhsan x tau nak wat pe..so me call mmber2 skewl me..waaa diowang smue kat kem..ampeh da..pastu me call muh kazen,sha..muiz..adaa..kak et..hehe!me call bdak2 pom5 skewl me..bebual2 ngan die..call ain kat jb..call nurul kat kdah..uh smue owang nak call..ahax..mnaikkan bil tepon jew!huwaaaaaaaa..buhsannye!!!

huwaaa..miz u all so muchxx…!!!x besh btol td jumpe ngan bdak2 laki clas me pon kjap jew..
L|NdSaY a.k.a NiEjA

uh damn bored..!5.42am in da mornin..me still x leh tido..asyek duk ngadap pc nie jew dr td..urghh!kbetulan meha invite me sruh join zorpia ntah ape ntah..me juz approve jew la..isi jew la ape yd di suwuh isi haha!me pon lom slongkar abes lagik zorpia ni..but ape yg me tgk sket2 tu..kire cam myspace+fster+chiafrend+kawanster n plus plus plus haha..lbih kurang camtu la..pastu tgh surfin2 me tjumpe sumthin..trus me dload..nmpak cambesh jew..but mmg besh pon akekke! x sia2 me ol9 dr td..ngeh ngeh`..iwan ngan pinky ni x reti nak tido ke ape..uh me pon dah ngantok..im gonna 2 sleep…….!

ngeh ngeh`..testing2..
L|NdSaY a.k.a NiEjA

4.02am..uh me baru balek umah..kuar minum2 wif pinky!after isya’ muh sis,mir bgtau die kena pegik dftar kat mlake dulu baru bleh masok practical..!shit..last minute btol..esok plan nak gi kuantan antar die practical but tetibe mmber2 die call ckp kena dftar kat mlake dlu then baru pegik practical..uh!so bro,chox call aunty ckp x jd pegik kuantan sok..so  aunt,uncle n kazen2 smue cancel gak..so family jew la yg pegik..memule tu  parent sruh me,mir,chox n his fren,naziman pegik antar mir kat mlake n kuantan.pastu ntah camne my mom tpakse pegik jgak..warghh!kiki pon ikot skali..me kalo ikotkan ati mmg nak ikot skali..but me kcian x kan la nak tgalkan adik2 me yg lain..iwan,adik n faris duk ngan Pa..so me tpakse batalkan hasrat me utk ikot!waaaaa sedey2 me mmg plan kalo p kuantan nak jumpe si aaiaa..huwaaaaaaa..slalo pegik sane x dpt jumpe die..!urghh..lpas diowang btolak kul 11.30pm ikah n apeq dtg..gilew si apeq lari dr kem..die ckp dh x nak masok pom6 haha!siot jew..kcian plak die tgalkan lyda camtu je..uh!ikah ajak me pegik antar apeq but me nak kuar mkn ngan Pa n faris..on da way nak pegik kdai mkn tu faris nangis2 duk tanye Mama..waa me pon rase nak nangis gak bile tgk faris nangis..but tahan jew haha..smpai jew kdai mkn tu tgk2 bdak2 skewl me rmai gilew..uh memule wat dunno jew ngatkan diowang x nak tegur haha..baru jew masuk kdai diowang dah bising2 name me..ampeh je..waa wendu gilew kat diowang..so me bebual2 jap wif issey,mejoh,che po,angah,e-jat,shahrul n sapew lagik ntah..rupe2nye diowang pon curi2 kuar dr kem..diowang ckp kem tu burink siot akekke..ampeh da..tgh2 bebual ngan diorang jaa smpai..tkejut gak tetibe jew muncul..then die bgtau utp skrang cuti 1 month….lpas mkn me kiteowang trus balek umah..mase me balek tu pon iwan n adik still tgh tido..uh letih sgt la tu kot skewl..12.30am me gi lepak2 kat umah ikah japs.dkat kul 1am me baru balek..huh buhsan..so me wifikah,faris n iwan tgk citer gile pengantin rmaje..ampeh je crite..lpas abes crite muh aunt,cikna lak call..so bebual2 dlm 45min..si faris lak sebok nak callMama huwaaa..skali lg me mnitiskan air mate..bile dgr faris ckp Mama..sedey la plak..tetibe Mamasaje putuskan line mayb die pon sedey..faris plak trus ltak tepon then sruh pkaikan die pampers..dah nak tido!ngeh ngeh` warghhh buhsannye.